covertness: (Default)
𝙼𝙾𝚁𝚂𝙴. ([personal profile] covertness) wrote2018-07-30 08:06 am

INBOX



@katelin.philips | ■ ▲ ◌ ▼



heliophilous: (【THIRTY】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-22 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
I was.

[ it's not easy to admit because he'd really been no help at all while they'd been trying to get out of there. he'd just been...there. barely able to stay conscious, barely able to breathe, barely able to do anything. ]

It wasn't — [ he stops abruptly and resists the urge to rub at his chest. there was nothing there, he was fine, but it was still something he felt like he had to do sometimes just to make sure. ] It would have been a great chance for you to see my blood because there was a lot of it.

[ it's a terrible joke, he knows. not untrue but terrible. ]
heliophilous: (【FIFTY THREE】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-22 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he finishes his drink but doesn't immediately order a new one. he knows how that'd look and he doesn't need put out any more warning signs. ]

I helped stop a few looters during the whole EMP thing. Maybe a little more aggressively than should have been done but they weren't just going to stop because we asked them nicely to, you know?

[ a lot more? maybe a lot more. ]

Apparently, they were...well connected. [ or connected enough. ] I didn't even see them coming, you know? Woke up in some dank building tied to a chair.

[ and that was just the beginning. ]

I think I was there for...two days. I lost track of time.
heliophilous: (【EIGHT】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-22 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he doesn't flinch away but he does appreciate her being slow about it. he knows he's jumpy and if she's being that deliberate, she's seen it too. touch is...he's not afraid of it necessarily but he hasn't really been seeking it out either. when her hand lands on his arms, he shudders a bit, not out of revulsion or dislike but just plain relief that he's able to bear it. ]

I think so.

[ he's pretty sure he'd been close to dying but hadn't gotten all the way there. ]

But there was...I didn't want to survive at one point.

[ he breathes out, a shaky thing and rubs his brow. ]

I don't know how to really think about that.
heliophilous: (【SIXTY FIVE】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-23 12:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Dealing with it, I guess.

[ he doesn't want to die and he knows that for a fact. he doesn't want to constantly have to look over his shoulder either but he'll take the trade off if it means he gets to stay alive for a little while longer.

could that change tomorrow? the next day? the next week? he knows it's a possibility especially with this hanging over his head for however long but it's still a chance. ]


That sounds like I need someone to watch me twenty four seven which isn't the case. It's just...there's a lot to sort through.

[ if that made sense. ] I'm a little off if he couldn't tell. I know I'm not making it obvious or anything.

[ ha ha. ]
heliophilous: (【THIRTY】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-23 01:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

[ now, he finally signals the bartender for another drink. nothing too strong but definitely something with a slight punch. ]

I'm fine.

[ right as rain. ]

And it'll be fine. [ eventually. ] That's a lot more talking about me than I'm used to and it was all bad. Sorry about that. Shouldn't have dumped it on you.
heliophilous: (【THIRTY FIVE】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-24 12:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

[ he sits back a little, exhaling a quiet, quick laugh before reaching for his drink and twisting and turning the glass with his fingers while he gathered his thoughts. ]

Thanks for being better than a wall. [ not that that was much of a compliment but it's sincerely said all the same. ] Feel like I should give you the chance to get anything off your chest since you just let me unload.

[ so, you know, feel free. ]

Even if it's how about people just constantly talk your ear off. I won't be offended.
heliophilous: (【THIRTY ONE】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-28 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

[ he's gotten lucky in that he hasn't lost anyone because he hasn't been here long enough to make too many connections. he knows that that's a possibility, a danger of this place but it's hard to cut that part of yourself off. ]

I wish I could say that you were welcome at my place anytime but I don't have one of those right now. Not of my own, at least. So, you can always call me, though. I tend to be around.

[ especially now with the loss of his job and the bouncing back and forth between places while he figured out where to live since the safehouse was out. ]

And I might not be the greatest company but I can strive for above average.
heliophilous: (【ONE HUNDRED TWENTY FOUR】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-29 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks.

[ maybe he'll even take her up on that offer more than once in a blue moon all things considered. talking about what's happened to him has made him feel a little less like he's going to explode so maybe he'll do that more often.

he reaches for his drink and finishes it slowly. ]


I'm sure you'll find people willing to go in with you. The safehouse was crowded last I was there. [ but it'd be a little less crowded now that he couldn't and wouldn't go back just to make sure everyone was safe. ]

I think you've hit on what makes this place hard sometimes. You think you adapt and have things figured out and something new happens to make you realize that you don't. You tell yourself you're not going to make connections or open that part of yourself up and then you do and then...something like this happens.

[ people left and they took a part of you with them. ]

They've gone back home. I'm good with thinking that. And I bet they'll think of you every once in awhile too.
heliophilous: (【SEVENTY NINE】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-07-30 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I get that. You don't want to give a room to someone you don't really know especially in a place like this. There's gotta be some level of trust.

[ you don't want to give it to the wrong person who might put you in even more danger than you already were in just by living here or someone who made you uncomfortable. ]

I've been couch surfing for awhile now. [ so, maybe he did need a place. ] I can't go back to the safehouse anymore. I don't want to put anyone in danger.

[ and he was careful about where he went even now just in case. ] So, I'm having to be cautious about where I go. So, I don't drag trouble behind me.
heliophilous: (【ONE HUNDRED TWENTY FIVE】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-08-02 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
That's mysterious.

[ a smile flickers across his face as he reaches for his drink and takes several slow gulps. ]

You're not hiding your secret past as a pop singer, are you? Got a few albums out that I might have missed because it's not my type of music? Did some tours that sold out before you grew out of that phase.

[ he hides a quiet laugh by drinking and again and looks over at her. ]
heliophilous: (𝕆ℕ𝔼)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-08-03 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
I can see it. You've definitely got that pop star look.

[ he doesn't even know what a pop star look is. a broken clock's right twice a day though so maybe she does have the look and he just doesn't even know it. ]

If pen and paper were still a thing here, I'd ask for an autograph.

[ alas. ]

I'll keep your secret. Cross my heart. [ he taps two fingers over his heart and snickers. ]
heliophilous: (【TWO】)

[personal profile] heliophilous 2019-08-06 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
Sure. That sounds good. [ sounded like a good way to avoid his own head too. he doesn't want to get too lost in there any sooner than he has to so he readily accepts the offer. ]

You're so good to your fans. [ it's nice to know that he can still tease a bit despite all that crap in his head. ] Lead on. I'll help you finish your wine.

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-07 00:44 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-08 19:51 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-08 20:18 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-08 20:38 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-08 21:58 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 12:30 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 13:55 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 14:23 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 14:57 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 15:38 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 16:15 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 17:42 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 18:34 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 19:21 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 20:16 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 20:48 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-09 23:52 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-10 19:11 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-10 19:57 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-10 20:22 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-10 20:39 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-10 22:38 (UTC) - Expand

yeah, i'm down!

[personal profile] heliophilous - 2019-08-11 15:52 (UTC) - Expand